Hey you.
I haven't been this frustrated for a long time.
The last time I was this frustrated was... i don't even know.
I guess, at the time I needed a breather, i don't know. stuff just happened.
I just started having some glimpses of the future and.. i couldn't really keep myself contained. bah.
It really wasn't "judgment" - it's just that I guess I worry too much sometimes. I just cared a little too much.
I don't see you any differently - it just caught me off guard when you said you didn't a few minutes ago, and then did it right in my face the next minute. And I believed it, so I felt stupid, worried, and kinda betrayed. And other stuff happened over the week that didn't really help my mental situation. then my frustration won over me and I felt some... let's call it "physical emotional expression" creeping up on me. So I didn't want it to show - so I couldn't turn around.
So I called my mom, and just asked her when she was coming home - idk. I guess her voice made me feel comfortable. But feeling more comfortable, it was harder to keep this physical emotional expression from showing.
But, hey, thank goodness no one was home today. Just let it all out once I walked in the door. Home sweet home, y'know? :)
I don't consider myself any stronger than you are, but maybe I am. I don't know. I don't really know anything about this stuff, so I honestly just don't know what I am eligible to say. But yeah, I guess my logic was that if you never needed it before, why do you NEED it now? I guess it's just something I don't understand entirely.
Sorry for my unnecessary intervention.
I happen to do that a lot. eh.
Goooodbye :)
I haven't been this frustrated for a long time.
The last time I was this frustrated was... i don't even know.
I guess, at the time I needed a breather, i don't know. stuff just happened.
I just started having some glimpses of the future and.. i couldn't really keep myself contained. bah.
It really wasn't "judgment" - it's just that I guess I worry too much sometimes. I just cared a little too much.
I don't see you any differently - it just caught me off guard when you said you didn't a few minutes ago, and then did it right in my face the next minute. And I believed it, so I felt stupid, worried, and kinda betrayed. And other stuff happened over the week that didn't really help my mental situation. then my frustration won over me and I felt some... let's call it "physical emotional expression" creeping up on me. So I didn't want it to show - so I couldn't turn around.
So I called my mom, and just asked her when she was coming home - idk. I guess her voice made me feel comfortable. But feeling more comfortable, it was harder to keep this physical emotional expression from showing.
But, hey, thank goodness no one was home today. Just let it all out once I walked in the door. Home sweet home, y'know? :)
I don't consider myself any stronger than you are, but maybe I am. I don't know. I don't really know anything about this stuff, so I honestly just don't know what I am eligible to say. But yeah, I guess my logic was that if you never needed it before, why do you NEED it now? I guess it's just something I don't understand entirely.
Sorry for my unnecessary intervention.
I happen to do that a lot. eh.
Goooodbye :)
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